ON ENJOYING A WEEKEND SOMEWHERE CALLED 'HOME'

Here it comes, my weekends. I've planned ahead of me to visit my grandaunty's house here in Taman Esplanad, Bukit Jalil. This was since a month ago because the plan had to be postponed until now as I had exam now and then. Hence, I just give my polite aunty Monica a message,and here I am now, in a warm and cozy three-storey corner lot terrace house in Bukit Jalil.

I arrived about noon time after they had fetch me in HTAR at 10am on Saturday. Since then, I ate and talk and ate and talk non-stop. I really enjoy myself to the utmost here. HOME! Although I haven't seen them in years, to count actually, but they really treat me nice. I actually feel more comfortable then going to my uncle's house. I already cancel of my mind that I might feel awkward staying here since I have not contact them for so long.

Home-cooked meals, family talks and playing around with my cousin Princess Vicky. She misses me a lot as claimed by her mom. Well, she kept all those cute emails i sent her. She listen to what I said. Maybe indirectly I have become her role model, as she is inspired to become a doctor. Well, I don't mind that, in fact, I'm proud of myself at some point. But I can't be cocky right? It is just a small compliment from my aunty. I promise to myself that I will play my part in return. Try to give some advices to vicky, eg. Consume more vegetables and so on... I may not come their house too often, as my finals are approaching soon.. But, I'll try my best, although I also do not want to bring them trouble for fetching me from Klang. Quite far. It is more convenient if I'm staying in UM, 15 minutes drives with no traffic jam. Can be consider, right?

I try to spend most of the time with them, talking and sharing, and play with Vicky. She's a single child, so I guess she is boring sometimes. I put aside my Occupational health for days now. Sad thing is, I'm going to have my OH exam on 22nd April, which is very soon. Die! How am I suppose to memorize everything in such short time??? Moreover, I do not what is the style of my new lecturer Dr.Syaridah or whatever la...

Anyway, this is my choice. Dividing time is always a challege to me. Study, relatives, play time, preparing for finals and whatsoever! I'm in dillemma and that already waste part of my time having to plan about it properly.

Well, I guess that's it for today. I will call it a day until here. ~YO~

Here I am, coming to think and worry about the same thing again and again...

My study, my life, my future life, work prospect, my elective, my holidays and my own choice!

So many things.... All these put me into dilemma actually! Can I balance these out? I mean my time to work, and play. Play hard and study smart! Do you realise where's the emphasize? Play always come first to me. No matter where I'm going, although maybe I look to be kinda serious sometimes, I do think and plan about PLAY. It is essential to life. We need it, I need it. I need it because it helps to destress me, reduce my acne problem and lessen my burden into cosmetic care! No la, the utmost importance is it makes me more confident because I am able to lift my head up high and face the world. That is the best! Study? This is my future. I want to settle myself down to a good one, live comfortably, doing things I love, helping others as much as I can, lessen the pain of those who suffer, that's my goals. People around me happy, I will be happy.

Save the earth! another issue to think about right now. Reduce the use of plastic bags, don't by stuff you don't need, recycle as much paper, plastic and glass bottles, aluminium cans and so on... I try my best and play my role as much as I can. I bring my own paper bag to night market to buy food and fruits. If possible, I don't use plastic bag. Alternatively, use it as much time as I can before it torn off or being thrown away finally! Hehe...

My social life...This is a major issue to me always. My friends around me. I can mix around, but sometimes I get irritated and can't stand them no more. I not sure whether is it always my attitude problem or is it theirs??? I ask my roommate a few times before, and she had reassured me. I can speak. But I'm not good at breaking the ice. Especially with guys. It is hard for me to make the moves to join them always. Unless there are someone else going along, I'm on. But for me to initiate a gathering or whatsoever, it is hardly. RARELY. I'm shy. I don't have the mouth to ask people to bring me out for movies, to yum cha, to shopping or whatever. Maybe this is partly due to the fact that I don't like to trouble others. So many reasons la...

Anyway, I always come to the same conclusion. Life is complicated! Time flies, i'm aging, things change, people change, life goes on~~

With a high hope i went to the ward, thought of clerking a female patient who probably having alcoholic liver disease. There i went, right after my lecture.

I walked there alone, as my partner was't coming to ward this evening. I saw there's one girl about my age sitting on the edge of the bed with a middle-aged lady on the bed, which was supposed to be my patient's bed. I began looking for the case file, as to confirm first. Yup. She was assigned to me as my patient. Hence, without wasting much time, I began my interview session. Most of the questions were answered by the daughter of my patient. Certain specific questions had to be translated to Tamil before my patient could answer me. Well, maybe she don't really understand BM well, though living in Malaysia for years...

As I inquested more, I was understood she was electively admitted for oesophaealgastroduodenoscopy (OGDS). Nevermind, I kept asking.What disappointed me the most was, she did not have any signs and symptoms alcoholic liver disease except for jaundice! No vomiting, no nausea, no hematemesis, no epigastric pain, no hypochondrium pain,no changes in urine colour,no melaena, no pruritus and etc... She totally complaint of nothing even for her previous admission but only jaundice! That's all!!! Moreover, she even claimed to just being a rare drinker. Last time was 3-4 years ago. The most she only drank no more than 1 small glass. Then?? How to come to the diagnosis? Why did they perform OGDS on her? She had no complaint of vomiting blood or whatever. In addition, her daughter said during the first scope, there was a few injury sites found and medication was given. Her mother had her second scope done where no more injury was found and medication was stopped. This time was only to check for any injury in the tract again. Nothing else.

My goodness sake, then why do they wrote in the admission book that this patient has alcoholic liver disease? I couldn't find any evidence to support that so far. Nevermind, I keep it within myself after about 20 minutes of asking questions which the answers were always NO. I proceeded with P/E. No positive finding except for scleral jaundice! Haih... Don't know what to say...

Then I met a colleague of mine. I told him my finding as he planned to do P/E on my patient too. Coincidently, an indian doctor was about to perform a femoral catheter on a sepsis patient for hemodialysis. I got interested and stuck there. By the way, the doctor also asked both of us to do abdomen examination on the patient after that. So there I stood watching and listening and memorizing what the doctor explaining.

In and out the needle poking from the patient's femoral vein... Saline was injected and some blood was taken. It seemed that the doctor was not satistied with the flow of blood in the right thigh. Hence, she changed to another side. By this time, I began to feel giddiness. I had told my colleague that I felt GELI already. But now, it had worsen. I could not stand it no more. I walked off. I could see my vision blurring, my visual field was getting smaller interrupted by shadows. My colleague had asked me to sit or offered me to buy me something, but I just couldn't answer him well as I could not listen well to what he had said to me. All was blurred. I walked, but in a zig-zag line. I tried best to balance myself. Luckily my colleague insisted on following me even though I had asked him to proceed with the observation. I found a chair to sit after asking for permission from another patient nearby. I even asked her if she had a sweet for me to chew. I might be hypoglycemia, although I'm not hungry. Maybe I was too exhausted. Lack of sleep. I closed my eyes off to shun myself from the world for a moment. I just kept wishing I would not faint, not in the ward! I guessed after 1 minute, I began to feel better. I talked to my colleague. He still offered me to buy me something to eat, or just take some biscuit from patient. I refused. I still want to see the procedure. Besides that, I also felt bad just walked off from the procedure just now. So both of us went to the bed again and continued. LUckily everything was fine. I just kept on sweating. Cold sweats I supposed.

Next, I decided to go back hostel for a rest. But half way on my journey, I only remembered that I had promised my another colleague of mine to bring back his tupperware. So again I went up to 7th floor. Finally, back!

Rushing to bathe, then here i went to night market located about 10 minutes walking distance from my hostel. Bought some fruits and food. Satisfied. Then I moved on with distributing some work to be typed for the appendix of my CRP project, and out of a sudden, my laptop just switch off. I was quite terrified at the moment because I could bare it if my laptop suddenly malfunction! Running here and there to ask other rooms, knowing it was not my laptop problem, but the plugs of all rooms had went wrong. So I went to the guard to ask for help. Fortunately, the problem was solve within less than 5 minutes! Yes~~

What a tiring day. I bathe another time as the weather was quite hot. Next, off the light and I lying like dead meat on my cozy bed....